My mental health journey hasn't been an easy one. It's been full of ups and downs, good times and hard. At certain points I was so low I didn't know if I even wanted to live anymore. To get to where I am today is truly a blessing. It took a lot of hard work and courage, but here I am.
The first time I experienced anxiety and OCD symptoms was 5 years old. All throughout my early childhood, I recall being very anxious and having a lot of obsessive-compulsive tendencies. If I touched something with one hand, I needed to touch it with another. I did things in 5 because there's 5 people in my immediate family. I thought that if I didn't, something bad would happen to them. I was always scared about something, worrying about everything a young kid shouldn't be worried about.
It wasn't until I was around 18 that I realized how truly impactful anxiety and OCD was on my life. Depression came seeping in and my life felt like it was ending.
I wish I could tell you all the details in between, but that would look more like a book rather than a blog post. So what I will say is this: For many years I really struggled with my mental health. I didn't know what to do and I truly believed that my life was cursed. There was no hope or guidance and I felt lost.
After deciding to go to therapy, start medication (which I pushed off for so long), and practiced self-care and self-love, I started to feel like myself again.
In the depths of my despair, all I kept thinking was "I'm not going to get through this. I cant get through this"- and yet, I did.
That's why I am here today. That's why I want to help YOU realize that no matter how dark things get, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.